Getting older

Not that I am any authority on what it is like to be considered "elderly" but I do know that our culture needs to show more respect for the older and wiser. We have so much knowledge to gain from their experiences and more times than not, it seems we let that knowledge pass us by. My grandmother is in a nursing home and she has Alzheimer's. I know she is not the same person I remember her as and it's hard to deal with that. I have learned though that she is a new person who still needs love and support. I bring my infant son to the nursing home to see her and she along with all of the residents perks up at the sight of him. It's amazing to see the transformation that takes place when people decide to share love, and take a little time to talk to these people. One very important thing to do with an elderly loved one is to read to them! I think it is sooo important, and talk about perking up! Finally there is a publishing company that is specializing in books and stories for the elderly. It's about time. I'm going to be mentioning them a lot because this is a very great thing! Ageless-Sages is the name. They have just started up and have their first publication coming out soon. Click the link above to see what I'm talking about.

In there

Dew dripped down the cold yellow leaf and into the mud on the ground
a squirrel scurried under a safe warm rock without making a sound
my breath can be seen and my hands cannot
they are covered by mittens with holes in the tops
and my feet sink into the mud on the ground
and my boots are now dirty and cold
I'm walking the distance from out here to in there
and I'll go home thinking about getting old.

Forest Dwellers

It's now October and a warm one overall. There is more talk of a mountain lion in this part of St. Lawrence county and my husband has seen a big bobcat and not to many deer yet. Is there something or things in the woods? Are there fewer deer this year because of it? I dunno. What are your thoughts?

Summer

Not much rain this summer... I wonder if it will take until mid January to snow again like it did this past winter?

Help Needed

I am in desperate need of financial help. The problem is, in this neck of the woods, everyone is in need of financial help. Our combined income is too much to receive any services, but our debts are too high to obtain a loan or mortgage. What do we do? Not to mention, Iraq Veteran status means nothing. It's disgraceful. No help for those who work their asses off. Declaring bankruptcy is looking more like the option but there has got to be another way. We moved up here three years ago hoping to build a house on the land we bought. The land was raw though, and remains that way to this day. We work day in and day out just to get by. It's no kind of life. We've also got a baby on the way in June, and a looming eviction from my grandmothers house which we've been living in virtually rent free to get caught up on things but now, grandma is in a nursing home and the state will be involved soon. We can't buy the house through a first time home buyers program or a low income housing program because 1. Either our income is over the bracket or 2. Our debts are too high as I mentioned in the beginning. I don't suggest any young couples ever relocate to the North Country. It's rare that anyone succeeds up here. You've got to have quite a lot of money saved in order to survive. This area has chewed us up and spit us out. Canada isn't too far away... I'll try to be positive.

Hush

The wind hushed through the tall pale grass and I felt at once I was free
The wind hushed through the wings of a crow curoius to watch me
The blue ice and snow were frozen in time
And time was frozen still too
Tufts of field straw poked up through the snow and the glitter of snow stuck like glue
Everything seemed to be waiting for something, that something seemed ever so near
It was there but gone in the blink of an eye, the white flash from the tail of a deer.
So hushed was the wind from it's chore to announce
that the message was almost not heard
But it did not escape these cold ears on that day
I listened and breathed it all in.
The crow was then not so curious
For the line between us became thin.

fist posted 4/21/06